Found time!!

I found some time to sit for a minute and breathe….

Let me start out by saying that web design is very involved. I’ve been begging the computer to design something not realizing that that is my job. I love my drawing I class. I never knew I had it in me. I will, if it kills me, get a passing grade in Film!! (I’m not giving myself any other choice). I can’t wait till Joel and I can show our podcast. I think people will be intrigued by it.

I haven’t had much time to do any surfing for cool new things to enjoy lately, such as music!! I have 58 unread emails I can’t find time to read either. I need to remedy this!

I am looking forward to next semester tho. I get to talk to my adviser on Tuesday. I can’t wait!! I’m begging for beginning photography and photoshop. (so that when I do feel the need to design I will be able to control it instead of begging the computer to tell me how to do it!!)

 Ok, I’m contracting for a couple days so I guess I better get back to work.

This school thing isn’t that easy……..

WOW! I am amazed at my grades for the midterm! I am actually making grades that I made in high school when I thought friends and food were more important. The only thing is I haven’t had much of a social life since July, or sleep for that fact, and I have spent many many many hours on homework and so far I’m only doing good in one class out of 5 (and it isn’t this class!).

I was warned it was going to be hard. Now that my job is over I am hoping I can redeem myself a bit in the second part of the semester. It’s hard to wake up at 5:15am, after only having about 2-5 hours sleep, work a full day and then pray to God you have done enough homework the night before to get by and then get home after 10:00pm knowing sleep is nowhere in the scenario any time soon.

It’s been a full week since my job has been over and I don’t see how I was getting my homework done before but now know why I have the grades I have. There is such a difference from community colleges to Universities. Before I could take 16 hours of school and still work full time and pull A’s in all my classes. Now…things aren’t so easy. And I can’t say why things are so much tougher from one to the other. It isn’t like community colleges are getting you preemted for Universities because if they were then things would be a lot different!!!! (or if they are then the community colleges need to step it up a couple levels)

So here I am praying to God that I am able to save myself a bit so that my GPA doesn’t hit rock bottom by the end of the semester.

BTW…

…I dropped my Java class!

I sat and thought about the fact that I hadn’t got the first part of the class (I blame my teacher for this!) and since I failed the first test that I didn’t want to risk failing more tests and then failing the class…thus dropping my GPA…sooooooo I droppped it.

My brother said that next semester when I take a true ‘beginning’ class that he will help me with programming. I love my brother! Always there to help!! (I love my family!)

ZZZZZZZZZZZ……..

It’s raining outside and I just read that the high is going to be 65 on Thursday. Snuggle weather is on it’s way!! Or, if you are someone like me, then it’s sleeping weather because I don’t have anyone to snuggle with. (could be worse)

I’m sitting here at a job that has already fired me doing nothing. Kind of feels like a waste of time, honestly. I’m usually not the type of person that sits and watches the clock but lately that’s all I find myself doing.

I’ve been in a poetic mood ever since I saw ‘In Her Shoes’ the other night on HBO. In the end of the movie Cameron Diaz’s character reads a poem to her sister that I in turn posted on my sisters myspace page. It’s so good to have a sister…someone to keep you going when you think there is noone there for you. Here is the poem I fell in love with and dedicated to my twin:

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

Almost there…

I’m almost there!! 4 more days and I will officially be a free woman from Corporate America!! I can smell the fresh air….

I can’t wait! This means I will finally have the time to get caught up on all my homework. =) I know a lot, if not all, of my teachers will appreicate this.

(I’m doing the happy dance!!!)

By the way….

…I didn’t pass my Java test by 1 point….

….what’s in a point? A point by any other name would maybe mean a different grade….(only in Aimee world… where I have fought the battle of getting off failing grades….not quite sure if they have invented the drug for this yet…still looking for support groups too)

Ok, so I went and bought a Java for Dummies book praying that it will help me understand what my teacher says ‘is easy’. So that at the end of the semeser I can walk away and say ‘I taught my self JACK ASS!!’

I’M SO HUNGRY

One thing I’ve noticed lately about the juggling act I do with working full time and going to school full time is I stay so hungry. I have spent most of my days ignoring the food on my desk at work because I am too busy telling my replacements the in’s and out’s of my job (well…this is how I do it, you can do it that way but….this is how I do it (feel my frustration?)). I feel like a mom to a 2 year old…no, don’t do that….wait…you need to click this button….WAIT…if you do that you will have a error batch. AAAAHHHHHH!!!!
I have never been so worn out in my life….until I realize I have another 6 hours of school to attend that day and no time to enjoy a bite to eat. *SIGH*
Then the exhaustion tempts to pull me under and I some how find the energy to go to class and soak 30% of what the teacher says in my brain. =)

So here I sit in my Mass Media & Communication class listening to podcast interviews wishing I had something to eat so I could concentrate on the importance of tonights lesson.

I hate tests!

I took my first Java test tonight…can I express how horrible it was. It upset me so much my stomach was turning when I left. I don’t want to go through that again. I hope that I can get the test back…ace it…and be confident that the next time I won’t let myself get so worked up….

Steve Irwin

I wanted to post a blog to honor Steve Irwin when I found out he died. This man changed my life in so many ways. I’m sure he affected so many people that way as well. I have heard stories and read emails people have sent describing the way he changed them.

There was a time in my life that I worked, went home, went to bed and got up to do the same thing all over again…day after day after day. One day my husband (ex now) was watching the Steve Irwin show. I fell in love! Who couldn’t have…he was so enchanting and hilarious and sincere. I found myself wishing my husband had the same qualities as Steve. I became addicted to his shows. I was excited to actually go home now. Instead of working 12-14 hour days I left at a normal time so I wouldn’t miss an episode. I guess you can say I discovered happiness again with his shows.

So, when my sister called and told me he had been killed my heart broke. How could someone invinsible die!!??!! How could this be possible? The world needs him! I sat all day on the 4th and watched CNN. The tears fell with out me calling them. I don’t remember eating….If fact I don’t remember doing anything except staring at that screen praying what I was hearing and seeing wasn’t true.

I still get choked up when I think about him. I went to the mall with my sister on Sunday and G.W. Exotic Animal Foundation was there with baby tigers. There must have been 10 of them. On the sign it said you could sit for 8 minutes and pet them for $25. I wanted to do it so badly but the wait was too long. I stood there….staring…hearing Steve’s voice in my head. Seeing him and remembering his love for animals such as these. I had to walk away for a while because the emotions were too overwhelming!

That night when I got home I finally concluded that he will always have that special place inside me. And I hope that people will remember him for years to come. I hope there are people that will follow in his footsteps and that his children will be as big in conservation as he was.

http://www.crocodilehunter.com.au/crocodile_hunter/about_steve_terri/index.html

 Steve Irwin & baby tigerTo Steve….You WILL be Missed!!!!!

Speedbump #1,2,3….

Ok, yes…..it’s been a long time since I posted a blog….and here’s why:

I am working full time, going to school full time and trying to have some what of a social life. 24 hours in a day is NOT ENOUGH!! My day starts out with an incredibly loud alarm clock that I hate. I’ve had it since High School…(thinking about buying something more welcoming at 5:45 in the morning to wake me up). Once I get up it’s time to run around the house getting all the things together I need for the class that day and work as well. Then it’s on the road heading to work.

Since my company has decided to move it’s corporate offices from Dallas to Detroit I have spent the last 2 weeks training. In other words…my life as I know it will never be the same. I used to have lunch hours where I could do homework and then there were sneaky breaks I took between jobs in order to blog, research and other things related to school….but no more! Now, I stare at someone else doing my job telling them…no, yes, that’s good, now do this….and onnnnn…and onnnnnn. It’s mind numbing!!!!!!

So from there I go to class from Monday to Thursday night. I don’t get home before 10:00 pm. Once I get home my WONDERFUL sister has dinner waiting for me at her house. I get a moment to vent and tell someone how tired I am. After that it’s time to get ready for bed and then do homework until I can’t keep my eyes open any more. I barely have time to get 4 hours of sleep at night only to get up and do it all over again.

That is speed bump number 1 through….about 20. The biggest speedbump I had to get over is dedicated to my Internet Studio class. The requirements for the class were 2 books, web design and Dreamweaver 8. So, I go and buy the books. Next class I realize what a dumb ass I am…I forgot to buy the software. Soooo….I got and buy Dreamweaver 8. Get to class and realize I need Adobe Photoshop CS2 too!! Ok, so I buy the software and guess what???? My home computer isn’t new enough or have enough memory…or whatever…it just wasn’t good enough!!!! So I beg my teacher to give me some more time so I can buy a new computer. Ok, Dell builds me a new computer I get it, I get my website created…some what…and then I get news that I have 3 tests in 2 classes coming up.

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