Archive for October, 2006

This school thing isn’t that easy……..

WOW! I am amazed at my grades for the midterm! I am actually making grades that I made in high school when I thought friends and food were more important. The only thing is I haven’t had much of a social life since July, or sleep for that fact, and I have spent many many many hours on homework and so far I’m only doing good in one class out of 5 (and it isn’t this class!).

I was warned it was going to be hard. Now that my job is over I am hoping I can redeem myself a bit in the second part of the semester. It’s hard to wake up at 5:15am, after only having about 2-5 hours sleep, work a full day and then pray to God you have done enough homework the night before to get by and then get home after 10:00pm knowing sleep is nowhere in the scenario any time soon.

It’s been a full week since my job has been over and I don’t see how I was getting my homework done before but now know why I have the grades I have. There is such a difference from community colleges to Universities. Before I could take 16 hours of school and still work full time and pull A’s in all my classes. Now…things aren’t so easy. And I can’t say why things are so much tougher from one to the other. It isn’t like community colleges are getting you preemted for Universities because if they were then things would be a lot different!!!! (or if they are then the community colleges need to step it up a couple levels)

So here I am praying to God that I am able to save myself a bit so that my GPA doesn’t hit rock bottom by the end of the semester.



…I dropped my Java class!

I sat and thought about the fact that I hadn’t got the first part of the class (I blame my teacher for this!) and since I failed the first test that I didn’t want to risk failing more tests and then failing the class…thus dropping my GPA…sooooooo I droppped it.

My brother said that next semester when I take a true ‘beginning’ class that he will help me with programming. I love my brother! Always there to help!! (I love my family!)


It’s raining outside and I just read that the high is going to be 65 on Thursday. Snuggle weather is on it’s way!! Or, if you are someone like me, then it’s sleeping weather because I don’t have anyone to snuggle with. (could be worse)

I’m sitting here at a job that has already fired me doing nothing. Kind of feels like a waste of time, honestly. I’m usually not the type of person that sits and watches the clock but lately that’s all I find myself doing.

I’ve been in a poetic mood ever since I saw ‘In Her Shoes’ the other night on HBO. In the end of the movie Cameron Diaz’s character reads a poem to her sister that I in turn posted on my sisters myspace page. It’s so good to have a sister…someone to keep you going when you think there is noone there for you. Here is the poem I fell in love with and dedicated to my twin:

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

Almost there…

I’m almost there!! 4 more days and I will officially be a free woman from Corporate America!! I can smell the fresh air….

I can’t wait! This means I will finally have the time to get caught up on all my homework. =) I know a lot, if not all, of my teachers will appreicate this.

(I’m doing the happy dance!!!)